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I never thought that it could as much not having you around. I thought for sure you would always be there, and in time we would grow closer, healing that which was torn apart. I was wrong, and now I can see that nothing will make me stop hurting and wishing you were back here with me.

I dont know why I am even writing this when I am supposed to be doing constructive work. The truth is I am tired, and I dont mean sleepy. My nerves are like some long done tapestry and at this point, I am truely thread bare.

I am at the point, where I honestly think this place isnt healthy for me. I spend more time here then anything, more then working which for checking this place out on the clock has almost gotten me fired. And to the point where I cant even get a date, unline my ex gf who apparently is having a blast dateing =(. Well maybe it time to move on from the "rave"?

There are times, when I can just sit by myself and dig a bit into the man that lives inside me. I know it may sound like over dramatics, but its true. It is on the days that I do it...i come to realize, I feel like a window shopper in my body. Looking out at the world and not likeing the person I am am, but unwilling, and ignoratn of how to change.